Ugly

ughh long time no see, vent

jk, agghhh idk, I've been so busy lately that it has drained my energy. I had a good phase but now I feel like I'm the ugliest person on this planet. Like, it makes me sick to see myself in a mirror. I hate myself. In and out. 

and it makes me hate myself even more that I'm not able to make my friends happy. I'm such a failure. And I'm just in a way and idk I just feel awful. I feel like I don't deserve anyone and they're much better off without me ;__; 

soerry for the rant, feel free to ignore it idk I'm just letting some steam off

but seriously, I just hate the way I look and that I'm never able to cheer up my friends. aggjkgf someone end me like right now, I'm just a waste of precious air. I have gained weight and it makes me want to fucking rip my skin off and stop eating. I'm disgusting. ughhh


// end of vent 

I had a rough day yesterday and day before it, and now it's paying off. Nice